The Diving Bell & The Butterfly

Or Le scaphandre et le papilon.

This post is somewhat related to my previous one.

If you haven’t heard of this film, its a French film, a true story about Jean Dominique Bauby, once the author and editor of Elle who suffered from a massive stroke (locked in syndrome). He woke up one day and realised that he was completely paralysed and all he could do was blink his eye (left eye only).

He could only communicate words by blinking at every letter when another person recites the whole alphabet.

Its a one of a kind film. It really makes you feel as if you’re Jean Do, and its intriguing yet somewhat eerie.

But yeah, its made me realised that much more that this is what i’ve always wanted to do.

Therapy.

Music therapy.

Recent studies have shown that music therapy = stroke therapy.

Sigh.

What if… IF.

What if..you know, things had been a little different. I know i definitely won’t be here right now studying what im currently studying. This isn’t the first time i’ve ranted about this here. But a part of me will always wonder how different my life would be if i had the opportunity to take that path instead.

I’m not saying that i’m regretting what i’ve chosen. Afterall, we are the one who lay down the path ahead of us. But sometimes its not by choice you know? Sometimes in that dark and creepy place theres only one way towards the light at the end of the tunnel. And its only after you reach that light that you turn back and find an alternative back to the starting point.

Not many knew that i sent in audition tapes to a few music programmes and actually got in. I surprise myself sometimes. If only being a qualified music therapist doesnt require so much time and money.

I promised myself that this is one dream which i’m gonna be chasing till the end of time. Im determined to do this on my own without any help. I just don’t know how far i can push myself and how long i’ll be able to go on.

I just need to figure out how to complete a BMusic now because a course like that rarely has an external program or even part time. Then when i finish my current degree in Murdoch i can continue with my masters in music therapy.

So those of you always asking me how i spend my wages?

Now you know.

Life kinda sucks doesnt it? One way or another. It always does.

 

 

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3 thoughts on “The Diving Bell & The Butterfly

  1. I loved “The Diving Bell and the Butterfly”, but the movie I’d rather see is “My Stroke of Insight”, which is the amazing bestselling book by Dr Jill Bolte Taylor. It is an incredible story and there’s a happy ending. She was a 37 year old Harvard brain scientist who had a stroke in the left half of her brain. The story is about how she fully recovered, what she learned and experienced, and it teaches a lot about how to live a better life. Her TEDTalk at TED dot com is fantastic too. It’s been spread online millions of times and you’ll see why!

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